a stream-of-consciousness thing that only got published as part of a longer blog post, but it's pretty long so it got its own page.

text version

Two people, “red” (R) and “blue” (B), have a talk.

Red starts. “hey, blue.

yeah, red?

A pause.

red?

what’s the point of all this?

Blue looks over. Red continues: “i keep thinking about… i dunno.” Lost in thought. “we’re here. we’re alive. what else is there?

Doesn’t look like much.

Red: “there’s a void in my chest where happiness should be. but is anyone ever really ‘happy’?

maybe for a time. a long time, even. but it can’t last.” Blue’s paying attention. Red continues: “life… people change too much for that. no matter what.

what keeps you going… when there’s nothing to ‘go’ for?

Blue responds: “i mean, none of us can really answer that.

work, family, accomplishments—in the end, we’re all stardust.

aren’t you a poet.

i’m not wrong, though,” blue continues. “truth is, nothing inherently ‘matters.’ we make our own meaning. because that’s really all we have.

and yeah, maybe that’s a tragic coping mechanism. it’s the best we got.

Red’s watching.

i can’t reassure you it’ll all turn out all right.” Blue doesn’t look over. “i can’t talk you into staying, in the end.

i don’t really know what i’m getting at here. it didn’t really answer your question.

but it’s the best i can do.

Red leans over.

it’s enough for me.