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The Rest Of The H*cking February

February 28, 2023

February Plus, the new subscription service where you click a button (this post) and see what else I’ve been up to this month. Wow!

I have really got to update this page layout but for now I continue to copypaste an unholy wall of page-specific CSS.

February notedump

No topic splits no gods no masters. Only dates.

Mostly music, with a spattering of other stuff.

  • 13: song via good-ass dance video
  • 14
    • Yume Nikki OST, in search of Omori parallels. mostly remembered why droning ambiance tends to turn my brain into mush (Off does this too with a couple tracks)—but I do listen to a majority of Black Space to relax so ??????? idk how that works
    • dA: Nothing but static.
  • 16: gnosticism talk → oh hey, this Homestuck analysist I read ages ago talked about this → ends up ignoring the analyst’s Gnostic talk and reading some other articles that piqued my interest
    • Self Portrait as a Fused Gem: Steven Universe and 20th Century Art—I don’t think I even watched this episode, but I do love me some Dadaist analysis
    • Happily Ever After Never Ends: Steven Universe the Movie and Serial Narrative—ah yes, I remember watching this film around the time the Homestuck epilogues released, and binging an actual fuckton of meta about The Nature Of A Narrative Ending and psychological implications because life doesn’t actually end until it’s really over, all that good meta/existential stuff. Weirdly foramtive, in retrospect. Between this and Omori I am all for this newer trend of saying “y’know, maybe ‘happily ever after’ is too simple, but we can still be happy.”
      • Had a pivotal influence on 404, I should note. (or, well, the linear version with a The End™ that I was toying with for a while.) Just, like, to quote the article: “If the story continues, that means continuing to reinscribe trauma.” (also as a side note this is not the first time I’ve notedumped snippets but usually they go in like, the personal discord chat or random txt files. This one is actually intended for publication, which could have interesting ramifications for my general workflow and thought-dumps and all that jazz.)
    • Breaking the notedumping for a moment, actually, like… do I have to prove to anyone that I read long articles and books and listen to a broad range of music and what have you, nah. There’s some niggling compulsion that I do, anyway, because otherwise sometimes I’m looking at swaths of days and wondering what the hell I’m doing. But more optimistically, I also just find what influences people really fucking fascinating. I’ve always loved behind-the-scenes stuff, bonus content, people talking about what drove them to make a thing or why they interpreted it in such-and-such way. Presumptuous of me to think other people might be interested in my own thought process? Well Actually No because I know awesome people who have reassured me, yeah, there’s someone besides me who gets a kick out of little asides and other notes that might be scrubbed from a professional drawing board but it’s me so they’re not. But also, most egocentric of all, I like it. I Just Think It’s Neat. End thesis.
  • 18
  • 19: Drukqs is a funky album
  • 20
  • 22
  • 23: going through bubblebaath’s blog again because I love it, and their music (particularly this track, which prompted me to stop and jot this down) gives me serious PilotRedSun/PilotRedSky vibes. two recs for the price of one!
  • 24: the Ena OST is a quirky thing indeed
  • 25: dA: We Are Going To Beat You To Death
  • 28

~yeah~

The Fansite.

“I want to make an Omori site to dump my art and particularly meta” >works on the art pages second-to-last >thinks of a billion other things to add and finishes most of those before adding a drop of meta

…Uh. Well. Despite that. It’s live!! It’s got a splash page (#ThrowbackTuesday amirite) and everything! I had a lot of fun making it, and it’s nice to have a little designated Obsession Space™. Having the core site done also means I’m that much closer to finally letting myself play the other route (I want to round up observations from the first playthrough (and since then) before diving in, especially since a majority of the route is apparently the same and I figure giving it a break will make the experience feel less repetitive), and I forgot where this sentence was going but ~yeah that’s a thing~.

Not gonna lie, there’s a part of me that thinks this is a little excessive/hasty; I mean, I’ve had other All-Consuming Hyperfixations and they haven’t gotten their own websites, and I’m barely over a full 30 days into this one. Who’s to say the interest won’t drop off, like, as soon as I finish reviewing the playthrough if not before then? I severely doubt that, but it’s a possibility! What if what if what if [insert more anxiety brain scrargling here] (“scrargling” is not a word but it is the closest approximation to the sound I’m imagining)

To that I say a few things:

…Anyway! Project page update TBA, along with all those other goals lingering from last month. That is all!

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